Face It

I am knitting the lovely Soay designed by Gudrun Johnson. It is exactly the sweater I crave right now. A little feminine, scoop necked, short sleeved cardigan that will work with almost every warmish weather thing I own. And I am knitting it out of the nicest yarn: Quince and Co.’s Chickadee in the perfect slightly pink shade they call Dogwood. I had the most blissful day with my knitting buddy Susan V. taking the train to Portland and purchasing the yarn, and eating my favorite pizza ever, so the whole project just makes me smile to think of it.

But here’s the rub: I was cruising blithely up the lace panels chortling with the rapid progress and fun, when I looked over my work and saw a mistake. A small mistake. A tiny, misplaced yarn over. That’s all. It’s hardly noticeable. And I happily proceeded for another few inches. But that mistake kept eating at me. And wrecking everything. And I know that a younger me would have soldiered on knowing that gaff would only make the sweater mine, and truly handmade. But now I hate it. I can’t let it pass. I can’t keep convincing myself it’s okay, because the arguing in my head is making me nuthouse. I have to face it. And…

I have to frog. I love the knitting, but I hate the ripping. Last night I couldn’t even look at my knitting bag. I watched an entire episode of Madmen without knitting. That’s right. I just sat there with my fingers twitching. Sigh. Tonight, after everyone has finally passed their melting point, and the house is quiet and sane, I will unravel my work.

And then I will patiently pick up my stitches, and begin again.

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1 Response to Face It

  1. Kris L. says:

    It will be worth it!

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